hello world. back to my seat, aaahhhh. anw i cant sleep right now so i decide to blog abt last night. well went out with my sister & her bf & her bf's friend and cousins (there were like 5 men) -.-" it was sucha dull evening. i kept giving the pathetic face, well, MY PATHETIC face to those losers. they're just not the type of ppl that i mix ard with. i mean, they dress like matreps and they look like one too & talk like one (which means THEY ARE ONE). thank god my sister's bf didnt look like a mat. i was begging my sister to like leave the place and go home. i waited like a... hais. and she was like, "please bear with it for a while". GOOOD. thanks to my "brother-in-law-to-be" (hahaha) gave a few sum of cash to my sister to take the cab home. i was gladddd and i happy that i sang in the cab. LOL. i cant help it. if i dont like that person, i will show it in the face bcus im not a 2-face-bitch. i rolled my eyes literally when the guys there spilled somthing lame. their sense of humor just suck. i cant entertain ppl like this. no offence but I AM LIKE THIS. lol. im sorry if i had upset those MATREPS (who doesnt even recognize they are one) out there. but, i can't help it you know. you guys are just a bunch of dickheads. NO OFFENCE (again).so hui2 told me im skinny. like fugging skinny. literally with bones left. LOL. i know. and i realised that. what can i do. i've lost 2kgs. idkwhy. maybe cus im suffering frm depression. these few weeks i've not been eating well. i dont have the apetite to eat u know. and i eat very little or i dont eat at all. so its like, I AM SUPER SKINNY. and ohhh, the other day, jody walked by and said, "omg. you're so skinny." and i gave her the look like -.- hello, i know. u dont have to tell me. so i shoot, "well, i love the way i am. i dont care what ppl think. you're just jealous." HAHAHAHA. well, i was kidding you know. i dont love to appear scrawny but i had to shoot her somehow. then she said, "yaa. i want to be skinny like you." -.- ya right. who wanna be skinny? you tell me. NO ONE. i wanna grow fat like an apple and go arnd with ppl noticing me & comment like, "omg. you look happy" (they mean fat bcus fat ppl are usually happy) i'll be smiling so wide & say, I AM HAPPY!! IM FAT!! YESS!! lol.
i dont like going ard with ppl looking at me like an alien from outer space, thinking that im a walking skeleton. this is one of the reasons i dont like to be stared at. im a little self-conscious. and i dont like, or shall i say, hate to be called skinny. i hate to be stared or glance at. i know im skinny but sometimes ppl just have to stop telling or remind me that i am. i know i am. its just hard for me to grow fat like normal ppl can. i have high metabolism. & if i dont eat, i will be like left with bones. im fully aware of that. & thnks for reminding be about it. but im still alive. thank god. but it feels exactly the same way when a fat person is being called FAT. you know. a skinny person being called SKINNY. it hurts sometimes. & i dont know what to do. but i just hadda look at the brighter side of life saying that as long as im happy, its fine. being fat or skinny doesnt prove you anything but just an appearance. what matters most is the inside. so thats practically what i would say to myself. its hard being so skinny. even kakak keeps on reminding me that im skinny. so what? she'll be like, "kurus sia kau..!" and adibah will be like, "you can fit into any clothes!" -.- thats not the fact. i dont fit into every clothes. im skinny for god's sake.
im loosing weight. im dying slowly. i cant help but breath.
im scrawny. BEWARE! -.-
till then,
another unsolved issue,
YANNEY-the skinny girl.
