well hello humans. right now, my day basically is too much of a boredom. i work all day and the next thing i know, i miss having fun. i kept spending my time thinking about *you know who* it sucks to not be able to celebrate my bestpal's birthday. he txted me, 'havnt talkd to u in sooo long :( ' it makes my tears in my eyes well up. i hate this feeling laaaa. only God knows.

so today i recite some prayers when i was at work. hoped that today's work wont be much for me to do and that i can head back home earlier than usual. guess what? IT WAS FULFILLED! thank you ALLAH. i love you more than i love myself (ok, drop this yanney) anw, i was glad and joy filled my smile. i didnt even notice it. i was actually smiling all day at work (randy told me so). haha!
and i think im gna fall sick again!! (gaud. this always happens when i work too long) fuck my health. my body is soo weak laaa. idk why cant it handle an effortless job. ok, maybe not-so-tough-job. hah!

my head is spinning like a disco ball. i wanna barf soon. i miss my franns. thank god haz is working with me (soon) she applied at my place like this morning? i kept on pestering randy abt her joining the crew. hahah! i think he's kind of annoyed by my sluggish questions. hee! and sorry, no pictures today. im back to my tedious life. so i was wondering about my results :((((((( ok, i should not talk abt it here. i haf work tomorrow. (omg. so dreading!) i wanna stay indoors and just carry out a humdrum evryday-thing.....LIKE SERIOUSLY.

something is bothering me.
the thing is, its so vague that i can hardly comprehend.
i dont know who am i anymore.
am i changing? or isit the other way round?
i hate being baffled by a dim sensibility.
i need answers.