well hello mofos :D right after my work tis afternoon, went to Ying's place and swam. we both talked about many issues. funny how i can keep the conversation running tho im not so close with her. but it felt like i was tho. really gna miss her. on a lighter note, she'll be coming back on March to get her A's results. whooohoo! and ofcus we'll contact each other. and her condo's pool was the shit!? too bad i didnt capture the scene. ahaa. her dog couldnt stop barking at the window. perhaps he sees *something* ok im crapping. to conclude everything, it was exuberant. just like a party for two :)

fuck Friday's event. as usual, they ditched me and Haz. so we fuckinglee went to catch Bedtime Stories. couldnt stop laughing 24 fucking hours. LOL! cant believe i had such callous pals. i've actually planned this whole fucking thing a week ago and wow, am i so prosperous to be *discarded*. woohoo! this is so radical. WOW! im so pleased and i feel so blessed to be treated like that :D and ohh, i even called them and tell them how much they've been missed. by who? ME OF CUS! -.- its exactly similar like when someone tells you she misses you, and the other party just give u like "oh, like i give a fuck. i dont fucking miss you, you fucking retard" reply. yeah, it felt like a retard. but whatever to that, i still enjoyed hanging out with Hazlinda. thanks buddy. thanks for never ditching my plans. lol.

so rule #1: DON'T MISS ANYONE.
rule #2: NEVER BE SO EAGER TO MAKE ANY PLANS.
and lastly, rule #3: TRUST NO ONE BUT YOURSELF.

ok, i think the rule #3 doesnt relate to any of this. hahaha! im pissed about the same issue, but when i think back, NO POINT fretting over such buddies. so i shall forgive and forget. plus, tomorrow's my results day. (long & deep sigh) i shall keep my fingers and feet busy, controlling my emotions. and ohh, like i've mentioned, i'll be telling no one about it. i know its a little too dramatic like, "c'mon. its just your results" and you'll give me the -.-" look. uhfuck. i have a feeling i'll run through the hallway and just seal my lips whenever ANYONE ask for how many points i've got. cant really imagine how i'd do. recalling back those past, ohh man, its sucha miss but that over-limited stress burst myself in and out. couldnt focus on the basics and came to know i was suffering from a clinical depression that was doleful. so if i fail to satisfy myself or anyone ard me, i have a strong feeling of walking back to the similar path that i intend to neglect for the rest of my life. i'll be a frigging fiasco (oh darn). why? bcus only HE knows what im feeling right now, bcus i dont wanna be a letdown, bcus i never want to disappoint mummy :(

lets all hope a miracle would happen; who knows, i could be a prodigy. (LOL at that)
love, yanney