i cant say much. i've lost a friend/sister. i miss the way we used to share and pour our feelings out. i miss the way we chilled at the hills by the pavement in the middle of the night and we would star gaze. i miss having sleepovers with you. i miss having pillow fights. i miss crying whenever we started talking about our problems. i miss it when we cracked our ass off when we laughed so hard. i miss your "lame" jokes. i miss having tons of topics to talk about. and when yesterday night you told me about how far you've changed, idk who am i talking to anymore. you dont know me, and i dont know you. im trying to sought reasons.
and when the bus drove off, i knew i couldnt take it. i was missing my other half! the one i share my joy, laughter, sorrows or whatever u call it. we practically share everything! she was like my very own sister. i knew at that moment i couldnt turn back time. and i wanna tell her that i miss her badly and tht i want the old her back! and when i realized that my tongue was tied, i swear i could run a million miles away. and it was late. i sat at the nearby garden, feeling so empty. i dont know what to do next. dear god, can this get any better?

Blog is going on private prior one week.
don't beg me to let you read.
bye.

PS: Happy Birthday Kakak. ily.