please dont mind the unpleasant sight of the picture. lol. today's paperwork was shittish. stood for long hours doing calculations and all. thank you so much Ibu for dropping by and get me some bites (evnthough it was raining atm) :) days are pretty hectic. not to mention im always feeling so hypnotic during work. which obviously was the reason that caused all the miscalculations.

basically things are moving way too fast and im still dozy. odd thing is im not really entice to get my pay. its very unusual (i know!) perhaps im still on a daze searching for another way to passover things. (i've been doing that in any case you dont know) i mean, you dont have to face the music all the time dont you? sometimes you just gotta lean on ur seats and just let nature take the job. but i know i do that almost all the time. it keeps me going. idk. builds my level of confidence i guess? nah, thats not the right word. more of like i've hardened to all the thick reproach that i get. :) yes. emotionless you can say. but idk. im liking this. makes me feel like a sovereign or sth (hahahahah!)

i think im feeling apathetic. so i'd rather not continue talking something which makes no sense. update more soon (if im free that is)...

what if its meant to be? and it was fated to be this way? can you make the change? do you think you'll make the best of it?