im really getting goosebumps over the same dream i've been having.
Ega's Mom.
whats up with me dreaming of her? its kind of absurd at the same time, weird. well dreams always means something (not some psychic thing but something that is going through your head)
and in that dream, i was like treasuring every moment i had with her. you know.. tryna impress and all. but seriously. the last time i saw her, i wasnt really being amiable as i usually am.
so its kind of confusing. why am i being such an adorable sweetheart in that bloody dream when im being a couldnt-care-less-fucktard in real life?

hmmm, wait. it does makes sense. i want a compensation. yeaaaah. thats it.
in my head, im wishing for the time to unwind so i could change whatever has happened to me before unknowingly. no, let me rephrase that; whatever that has happened to ME and HER. yupp. me and her. but then again, what happened between us? -.-
hmm, guess i really want her to like me so much huh?
no point dragging my feet any further bcus it aint working. i've rejected her gift that evidently caused the whole family to picture myself as a rude bitch. what am i suppose to say? NOTHING. absolutely nothing but to curse my ass out.
im about to fart in this library but i guess i cant do that as the place is kinda.. should i say cramped? haaa.
but anyway as i was saying.. that dream is so real that it bothered me so much so that im always thinking of ways on how to impress her -.- i know rigghhhtt.. i wanna stop impressing her. every day im thinking of ways on how to look better and be smarter (that sort of crappy stuff) wondering if my future parents-in-law would be proud to have me as their daughter-in-law.

BULL.
maybe im just over stressed with the fact that i couldnt get my boyfriend impressed with myself so i had to think of other ways which is obviously his kin.
sigh. just let this end please.
wells, back to revision yanney ;)