well im not sure where to begin expressing my thoughts and emotions but all i can say is im living by the flow. i hate the way my boyfriend treats me and hearing other people's perspective of it is like a wake up call. okay i think its more of like alarm ringing without me acknowledging it.

seriously. how i wish he could understand my needs and wants. its not that difficult. whyyyyy? i mean, of all the people in the world, WHY SHOULD I GO WITH SOMEONE WHO DOESNT EVEN STAY IN THE SAME COUNTRY AS I AM? wtf am i thinking? have i gone insane?

perhaps its the month again.. yeah im talking about the period that im going through when i crave for a sudden attention and care from someone.

i need attention.

i need affection.

i need a hero.