and when im alone, you're always on my mind. and when im with someone so close, your voice came in my head asking if i was happy. but what if im not? are you gonna be sad just like me? what if i say i want you, would u still consider taking me back?

i feel that the decision i made was wrong.

perhaps i should wait a little longer. just a little bit more of patience. bcus whatever i did made me feel so much worse than i felt before.

i wish i could just vanish away from this world bcus from the looks of it, my dignity slowly evaporates leaving me to look foolish to most men. i feel like a complete fiasco as i try to fix myself to become a better person. its not working but why am i always trying so hard when every minute i tell myself i'd give up?

all i want is YOU!

tho i know it hurts deeper when we were together, i realize it agonize me more when we're not. loving someone doesnt mean you need to own them but what does it mean when i really want to be owned by you? selfish? is that the term?

then i want to be selfish. im willing to lose everything else that i have. im willing to fall and drown myself if thats the only way for me to have you back.

im willing to do it. you could've just say it.

say you want me back. say that you didnt mean what you said. say you're sorry and you want to make it up to me. dont leave me on the lurch when you promise me you'll never.

dont break your promise Ega.

i still am very much in love with you.

oh yes i still do.