yeah sometimes i spot a hot or cute guy etc but i'll look away. its like i've taped my heart and eyes or probably flirtatious desires.

every night i'd pick a guy to start a fight verbally. it humors me when they reply me with the lack of intelligence. and i tend to win the war the whole time. then it comes to developing some kind of a rigid wall right onto my arteries to block all of the feelings that is trying to tear the wall apart. some kind of a shield to my heart, prevents me from getting hurt.

i know this is not the way but hey, today was one of the best days of my life.

spend time with my 2 girlfriends and we couldnt stop cracking our butt off. i swear they provide mirth every single time im with them like all of my problems suddenly grew wings to fly off my brains.

saw someone who looked exactly like Ega during dinner at ZamZam. he gave me this look like, "i know you." so i had to return the "i know you too" back. we made wavering eye contact. EVEN SHIKIN SAYS HE LOOKS LIKE EGA! and that sort of melted my heart for a second.

i couldnt stop looking at him and unfortunately i have a feeling that he thinks im attracted to him -.-" couldnt help but to stare at him. haaaa!

then after dinner, comes this indonesian guy, talked to me and we introduced ourselves. well he didnt just come up to me for no reason. HE WAS ASKING FOR DIRECTIONS TO THE NEAREST MONEY CHANGER. lol! exotic much? yeah but i know he couldnt take his eyes of me. NO, im not tryna brag bcus i can read people (tho people doubt that) i really can. dont underestimate me please.

so lets continue my story. we chatted and stuff. funny bcus he didnt bother to introduce himself to shikin or shida. neither did he even make any eye contact towards them. truthfully, he looks as if he was all over me.

thankfully he was the most goodlooking among his friends. ha-ha. i really have no idea whats up with me an indonesian really. they kinda remind me of Ega and honestly, it gives me a warm feeling, i sorta like it.

dont worry, i just kinda yearn for that feeling again but im not going to fall in love with some random guy bcus i dont believe my soulmate is anywhere near me. so im going to block those emotions from entering and use my instincts to judge this annoying species called, MEN.

dear soulmate, dont turn urself up now bcus im not ready fer yew. i'll call you when im done. HA!

so lets end this; awesome day and great night. couldnt ask for more.

will update when i feel like it.

adios ;)