have you ever got that feeling when you know everyone is around you and you are never feeling lonely or alone or probably have the time to even reflect on yourself?

and then the next minute, you notice that, you ARE alone. infact, you always have been. all those people around you, the atmosphere was just a temporary effect that lets you escape from a crazy, horrendous situation.

okay, i may be abit vague in what im saying but yeah, no one understand me cept myself, yada yada yada.. it happens -.-

i've really come to the point where i am really drained and the point where i am being a f lazy cow that i totally neglect my responsibilities and always avoid them nonstop. i mean, when the hell am i going to face the music?

i need a male bestfriend. no, really. i need one.