Dear Mom,

I just want you to know that you know nothing about us. You know nothing at all. You may think that I am a defiant daughter but you've yet to know how much i've changed. its okay if you think im a sinner because i will take it in. I brought the shits upon myself so i would really understand if you hate me. I just cant accept it when you call me stupid, when you curse me without knowing how much it hurts. I know i've hurt you unintentionally but you dont know what they've done. To think i've done so much worse? i guess you're wrong. no i wont hate you. no i wont reveal what i know because one day i guess the truth will come out on its own. i am no saint and neither are my other siblings. i dont think you would understand where im coming from. so i will have to comprehend.

I hope things will get better. I know you wont accept me now and neither will you accept the one i love but i will take it and suck it up. i wont defy you neither will i go against you. i will go down and be patient with what God have in store for me. for He will be the one who is able to let you understand how things are not as easy for me. Im not a sinner. Im a normal human being who is deprived of freedom in life. I am someone who is being locked in a cage yearning to be freed.

I wont blame things on the way they are. but i will blame myself for swallowing my pride. I have myself to put all the accusations on.

I wont let you down mom. i promise this.
i will get myself back on track. i just need you to be patient with him.... with me.

Love,
your worst daughter.