Things have been pretty demented lately. It has changed. Words cant rectify what I'm feeling but I have lost it all.

I began to reminisce the past. How beautiful they were. How things were so robust and firm. It got me blanked out, completely off guard. I didnt know feelings could change in an instant. Decisions that are probably too hasty when everyone's involved.
Several suggestions was being brought upon and I couldnt help but to keep emphasizing on one's loss. I tried to be optimistic, perhaps there's a better view out there, perhaps someone much suitable? But I was only trying to make myself feel alright. Though I know my expectations went wild, i still knew who i was, and who i am now.

He bruised me tremendously. I never thought he would let go of something we had sacrifice so much for. For all the things we had done.
I still believe he's my soulmate. I hope he still feels the same. We might decide to end it here but god knows that im still hoping we'd reconnect in the end.
Im torn apart.

Its never about myself. It has always been about us.