I knew someone else would hop in vastly. I decide to keep my option open. Realizing im back to square one, being completely unwary and uncertain of choices. I always tend to go with the flow and end up hurting myself.
Im in pain. My mind has dysfunction and it has intended me to sin. I dont want to go down that road anymore. I need a companion, not someone who'd use me. I would throw myself on someone and end up swallowing my own words. Im not interested in anything anymore.

Fuck marriage and happiness.
I doubt it exists. Dad showed me the true colors of life but my naivety never stopped me from exploring my emotions. But after the constant pain that has been inflicted on me, I soon realize that it was never gonna change. I am fit for the bill.

I'll be here, hopelessly devoted, helplessly in torment.
For hate exist through every little sparks of love.