Things has been rather, complicated. With the issues I have with my family, there are times when I feel completely vulnerable and, torn. Its a feeling I havnt felt for some time. A feeling I have been neglecting for a some period. And for some reason, too much feelings and thoughts are being put through towards this whole drama. 

Everyday im battling to overcome the circumstances I have to face. Every single day is like a battlefield. Its not funny as I am trying to compete with my inner self. I dont know where Im going but Im making choices and decisions impulsively. This, is unlike me. Im not like this. What has gotten into me? i have absolutely no idea. Im absurd. I guess? But thats just how things change. As the years gone by, I begin to realize how sad I am. Im not exactly happy. Im in search of inner contentment to find true happiness. But what really is contentment to me?