Its been awhile now.

This feeling is catching up on my breath. I feel like I am suffocated by all of these.
I know, it will fade away in time.

I'm not feeling it anymore. Like I don't even know if I want this.

And when I said I want to be left alone, I really am being left all alone. Although I know there is so much to do, unmotivated I am.

I wish I can find someone who'll love me and give his all.

Perhaps I am still naive thinking that perfection exists. And I just can't accept it when they don't give me enough attention. Perhaps I am attention deprived. I don't know.

I don't want to fake a smile.
I just don't feel like communicating to him.
Tears me apart.